PRINCE AWFUL's

      Okay, I'm a pervert, and usually confuse my feeling with my complex. An 8-years-ago story about me was, one day my weird action scared off a silly girl in high school, then the guilty-feeling me wrote a gentleman-like "I'm Sorry" note using my warm blood. Such a stupid apology just made me feel strange. WTF! Why did I do that gag that day? The another story is, accidentally I get another feeling on that girl after my damn'd 8 years.

 

     I'm confused about this grown-up girl on my old bloody sorry note. Pretty, smart, and pure as crystal. I really feel what a bad man I am now and then. Look at me. Messed hair, narcissistic, and sick as monster. I shouldn't pollute a white paper.... narcissism again! More important, my Avoidant Personality Disorder (AvPD) always ruin myself. So what'bout that unknown never-so-good feeling of mine? I even dream'd a 2nd-day flying to a city for a dinner with her.

 

     To keep a good feeling or something else, the best approach is freezing it. Not a bad idea, and just go blessing whatever destiny comes or not.

 

Chengtu, Szechwan | June 28, 2009

     Politics? No. Undoubtedly I'm not interested in those less passionate political role-playing games as my dumb life. Because I have no confidence to change the rule of that game, although we fella usually discuss democracy, human rights, or the president like we really care it and can do something. Nope, I'm too weak to wake up myself now. And the precious young is running out.
 

     A lot of youths in the world probably dreamed to be a millionaire quickly, and tried then failed as I did. When I sat down on the edge of acquired autism, I blamed my selfish for everything. Actually the problem now is not "I'm not rich"; it's "I'm gonna be rich someday… for what?". At the top of the desire pyramid in my heart, self-fulfilled enjoyment is no more important. Social issues are always the paradox for an introvert like me. Most likely, the expression of those true feelings from deep heart to someone would be used as my ultimate success of social recognition. Maybe it was called "Love".
 

     The matter could hardly be put with greater boldness or relevance to my special emotional reflections. It's meaningless life without a love inside when I know the Miss Right. Certainly, the best love story just exists in fairy tales. The reality we're facing is more complicated than feelings. I have to admit that the hurt from love is catastrophe to a person whatever it's strong enough or not.
 

     There's no tragedy or comedy in a love since the actor and actress direct the play together. And the marriage is unmistakably a variant of what I'm talking about. Thus, my ridiculous theory is, devoting my soul into the love, no regretting, and expecting valueless in the ashes of time.

 
   J'aime trop les gens pour ne pas répugner moi même à leur faire du mal; et les juger, c'est déjà leur faire mal. Aimer, ce n'est pas seulement "aimer bien"; c'est surtout comprendre.     -- Françoise Sagan

 
 

Edward Lincoln
April 16, 2009

　　在香港看IMAX版的The Day the Earth Stood Still時，我對那聊勝於無的軟科幻劇情毫無興致，分明就是衝著超大銀幕以及Keanu Reeves去的。

　　我自小便很擔心地球某天會被宇宙中一束隨機脈衝踢爆。這種淺科學的假想已經超越了我自身對於自我不存在感的極度焦慮。也就是，我無法想象大衆宗教慰籍所謂的『不滅靈魂』在無地球存在的浩瀚宇宙中如何立足。

　　每個人都對『世界末日』的神祕感到恐懼。不管怎麼個死法，地球的終結的確存在，卻又不知何時。在我細究物理天文之後，纔發現『地老』遠不及『天荒』可怕。從恆星塌陷，到宇宙湮滅，再偉大的外星文明應該都不能阻止這一切的發生，雖然那是在不知多少億億億年後的事了。但當我意識到連細水長流的『時間』也有天走到盡頭時，面對『地老天荒』這四個字我總是軟弱無助。科學使人不再愚昧，因為牠帶來了更多思考。

　　子夏曰：『死生由命，富貴在天』。相信命運對個人來說是一件很好的事。不必再『杞人憂天』，可以繼續追求一部電影，一句對白，一小段自我陶醉。為了隱藏那份黯然神傷，我們可以醉心於環保：熱愛自然，拒絕汚染，減緩變暖。反正『好死不如賴活著』。請支持『地球一小時』活動：在西元二〇〇九年三月二十八日晚上八點半到九點半，關上燈，點亮希望。



李瀚
己丑年二月廿一午書於錦官城

 

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ORIGINAL POST:

I can't remember how can I become a fan of Mr. Friedrich Hayek. Maybe his Law, Legislation and Liberty was too impressive for me in, my college reading. And his masterpiece about classical liberalism is also my favorite thesis on society and economy, whatever it was written 60 years ago.

 

By the way, Mr. Hayek looks like such so-called classical Nobel-prized economist, doesn't he?

 

 

 

Just after that remarkable Obama inauguration, I got this fancy portrait of Abraham Lincoln plus Barack Obama mix-up by funky artist Ron English. Maybe this is what we really expect on future from our global president. Yes, that's CHANGE.

 

Certainly, god bless our Abraham Obama, who shouldn't be shot by some clown at the end. Maybe I'll order a piece of such T-Shirt to show my support.